Don't Lose To Yourself

Sunday, 12:15 pm
July 28, 2024

Dear Mimi,

Well, as I was outside trying to brainstorm how to turn this thought into words, it suddenly clicked.

I remember something that you would always reassure me of. 

The fact that I am special and going to accomplish any of the things I desire.

And now that I know this, let me just say this first.

Over the past few years, I've had this unconscious thought. 

That being, why am I given the opportunity to play this game of life?

I have pondered that thought, and now like to think I have the answer, for now at least.

So, I believe that the power of this universe has picked upon me for no different reason than why you are here. 

We are all given the ability to believe in ourselves.

Yeah, I know, what a crazy fucking thought right.

Well, the utmost belief in yourself and your goals and aspirations, should make people laugh at how absurd it sounds.

I’m serious when I say that I know I will make tens of billions of dollars and continue to learn every day while doing the things I love and being around the people I love most.

This mantra didn’t just creep into my brain one night at sleep, it’s been nurturing over the past 20 years and will continue to do so.

But I have been faced with some temporary defeat. 

What is temporary defeat?

It’s the art of looking at failure and trying to learn lessons to gain insights that ignite growth and propel you down your path.

I am lucky enough to realize this by looking back at times when I fell short and didn’t reach my “goal”.

During my freshman year of high school, I tried out for the JV soccer team. Being a good soccer player and playing my whole life, I did think I had the ability and capability to make the squad, but the universe had different plans for me.

Being cut from the soccer team my freshmen year took my confidence down a level.

Not only was I not a part of the team, but I also thought at the time that my life was doomed. 

In my sophomore year, I worked and worked, and made the team. However, it was as if I didn’t make the team, and rode the bench all season.

Was my ability not there? Was I not confident on the pitch? I was left searching among a trillion reasons as to why I didn’t play.

Then my junior year, varsity tryouts came. This time, I was ready. I was communicating, making the right pass, tracking hard for every ball, but I guess I couldn’t shoot well enough with my left foot, I remember that’s what the coach said when he told me I didn’t make the team.

Man did I go home and cry in my room for a solid 5 minutes, I was again left devastated, my soccer career was seemingly coming to an end as my club soccer team of 12+ years folded.

I lost my team, my family, and the comradery of the sport, and left with the lessons and mantras that were instilled in me by my coach. I cherish those times and will continue to practice those philosophies for the rest of my life.

So, because of not making the team, I ended up focusing more on school and got back into reselling Supreme and sneakers as my entrepreneurial blood came back.

Now looking back at it, being cut from the prestigious school soccer team during my freshman & junior years was instrumental to me attaining the perseverance and strength to continue to and never stop betting on myself, even when the circumstances tell me to do so.

Failure is only failure if you accept it as such, take it as temporary defeat, and learn and grow from it.

This is now a mantra that is super important to me and should be important to you as well.

Along with another mantra: “It is you versus yourself”.

If you know, with a burning desire that you will make it to that desired end destination, well my friend, you have overcome the hardest part.

That is the action of believing and fucking knowing that you are here for a reason and that you do the things you desire. The only way to get there is to take control and steer your ship.

If you made it this far, just take away that you are the author of your own story. You can write negative or positive things in your story, so be careful what you write.

Be a glitch.